06. Breaking Away

06. Breaking Away

Dear...,

We have known each other since...quite a long time. When you arrived I haven't even noticed your presence, you were so quiet and almost invisible... Well, it was quite natural.. I was only a child when we had our silent meeting... You were always there when something bad was happening to me.. I was always wondering why others were acting so...weird.. Sometimes I was really confused about it and I felt really bad because of that... I didn't understand that so I just started ignoring it, but I didn't even realise that you were behind this all the time...
For the whole time, I was thinking that I'm just unhappy and that it's a normal state of mind. I thought that I don't deserve happyness, untill I realised your presence.
I'm writing this letter to tell you, that I'm breaking away from your chains which you have wrapped over my soul and mind. Which means that I'm no longer a slave of yours. I am not afraid anymore of protesting own master. Do you understand? I'm leaving your palace of misery and you won't stop me, because I'm finally free and you won't hurt me anymore. I've found my strenght within me, it's stronger than you can even imagine. I can burn you down like a dry grass, or crush you like a rock in Giant's hand, if I wish so, but don't worry, I won't destroy you, I've got a better place for you. I'll keep you closed in a dark cage of eternity, so you can feel just the way I felt: alone, forgotten and frozen...
As you can see now I'm my own master, master of my life, my soul, myself, and you won't rule over me again like you used to, for my whole life and there is something I want to tell you, before I'll send you to your prison...
It may sound weird to you but I have to thank you for something..
You caused me such suffer and fear... I felt lonely and guilty..but because of that I'm now stronger than I was before... And I couldn't done it without you. Funny isn't it?
My worst enemy turned into my great mentor..you may call it a paradox or an irony..I would say that it's both. Because...as I remember, I didn't even know that I can fight with you...or just to feel your presence. For all these years I didn't even know, that you were the cause of my pain..
What is the funniest, when you showed yourself, you caught yourself into your own trap..
You captived me for almost all my life, and one mistake destroyed everything you've built...That mistake made me who I am now, so there is one thing for me to do..
I'll leave you in your Pandora box, you'll sleep there till I die, but I won't forget about you, and sometimes I shall be your guest every time I have doubts in my heart. By looking at you, I'll know what I should not do, to became one with you again. You taught me how to be strong and how to be free, so that is why I want to thank you for showing me how to break away...

Your sincerely...